365 days…starting on Monday..my journey of self discovery begins.
It’s always fun to see things here. I am always catching sight of something that gives me a pause and makes me glad I live in the country. The robins with their bright red breasts and black squirrels with impossibly fluffy tails that make them look like Shay’s cat. Then there are the surprise moments, like the day I spotted a deer not 20 feet from me and we both froze and examined each other, or the night I went outside and it looked like the stars had exploded all over the roof of the sky. I use to hate not being able to see the stars properly in the city, seeing them here is like finding a long lost friend. It makes my chest ache to bursting. I needed this more than I realized. In a way it is like coming back to my roots. Though, Ohio is my true heart and always will be, I am learning that Wisconsin has much to offer a person in need of solitude and deep thinking. I know that once my year is up here I will be ready for the move to the city, but for now I am grateful for the experience of this place. It quiets me and makes me know that I am at peace in a way I have longed for a very long while.
The city has it’s own merits. It’s exciting watching people move about and wonder where it is they are rushing of to, to watch how they enjoy a park or some other local area, cramming in time to be in nature in- between other busy activities. I have yet to find a city that has no park or area for this purpose. Even in a city one can find birds and a quiet tree to lean against. I like that in the city you can go to a movie and sit in the dark and see old and new flicks. I love that there are store windows to gaze into and displays that make you smile, laugh, and drool. I love the way the city moves, with a beep and a roar. I love that there is a sound in the city that never dies. It is kind of calming in a way to know that no matter what that sound continues.
I love the city because it’s got culture and interaction quite the same level as the one with nature in the country. They both bring me something each in their own special ways. I love life and am greatly pleased by having my eyes opened enough to take them both in. I am thinking today about where I would like to live, and I think it is a place that has both nature and city at either end of it. I place with people who are off-beat and different one from the other. A place with things going on and nothing going on..at the same time. You can choose to interact with nature, or with people, or with just your inner heart.
For the next year I am going to attempt to capture who I am on my blog. I think this is as good as any way to start it out. I hope you don’t mind. I want to share what I am seeing and feeling with you mostly because I cannot seem to keep it to myself. I need to tell someone..I have chosen to tell you. I hope you don’t mind.
(grin)
Bekki
