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Did a burst photo off my webcam…sadly it cut off part of Izzy’s face at the end. I sure had fun taking it though. I am trying not to think of my life without Isabelle. The next 6 months will be hard. I will get her for the summer and then have to send her back to Fl once school starts. Until I get my feet under me that’s just whats best for Izzy. After I get settled and have a job it will really be up to Isabelle where she will live at that point. Mark and I agree on this completely. I am divorcing a good man. He has problems but has made incredible changes in himself, though, his cleaning skills leave a lot to be desired. (don’t even ask about the state of the house when I got back from Arizona.) Mark and I have agreed on shared custody and we also agree that I what Isabelle wants goes, even if one of us has to deal with disappointment. To be honest I think she needs this time with Mark to bond in a way they have never done in the past. I wasn’t given this chance with my dad and I always regretted us not being closer. I want Isabelle to have the full love and support of both her parents. This decision was not easy. In fact, Mark had to prove himself in many ways before I would agree to his having her for the next year. Mostly, because in the past I have done everything that needed done with respect to Izzy and he wasn’t really a participant as much as he should have been. He had to grow up in a hurry and I have seen an amazing transformation in him. When I got back from Arizona, he sat down and apologized to me. He said he had no idea just how much I did in the household. That I had carried the workload and that he hadn’t had a clue just what went into making sure Isabelle was provided for. He also said that he wanted to be a better father. We didn’t work out, but with faith and love he and Isabelle will.

Bekki