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	5/14/2008 - 0802A May Term 2008 Begins

 

100 Completely useless questions.

1. Are you an innie or an outie? Innie, they took my gallbladder out my innie..(grins) 
2. Have you ever written a song? I have written one but I only sing it to myself when I am sad and no, I will not sing it for you..unless you’re sad..and then I will make a complete ass of myself if you beg me to sing it (please don’t ask me to sing it…) The lyrics are on this site somewhere. 
3. Can you make change for a dollar right now? Nope, just did the laundry. You missed your chance. Around here quarters are sacred items. 
4. Have you ever been in the opposite sex’s public toilet? Yep! I went into the wrong bathroom once and instead of admitting it brazened the sucker out! I am the stuff!! (or just that stupid) 
5. Have you ever written a poem? I have written many, many, many..(Now ask how many are any good) 
6. Do you like catsup on or beside your fries? On Fries, burger, mashed potatoes, potato chips, (I could go on..but you’d just get bored…Ketchup is a food group people!) 
7. Have you ever been a boy/girl scout? Brownie, and Girl scout! 
8. Have you ever written a book? Attempted to write would be a far, far better choice of words. I like the one I did with Zen but will always love the one I did privately..2 whole chapters..(grin) 
9. Have you ever broken a mirror? With my face? I am not that ugly, I swear? (I have dropped a few though) 
10. Are you superstitious? No…(looks around in panic) Why? what have you heard? (tosses salt over her shoulder..just in case) 
11. What is your biggest pet peeve? I hate it when people gaze at me with loving eyes..that is just soo annoying..I mean really…(grin) ok, ok, busted..I Love it. I hate people who honk their car horns over and over in traffic..I mean seriously, they should get charged for any over 3.
12. Do you slurp your drink after it’s gone? Guilty as charged..toss me in the clink.
13. Have you ever blown bubbles in your milk?  I love that..chocolate milk looks coolest! 
14. Would you rather eat a Big Mac or a Whopper? I’d rather eat fried chicken if I am going off the deep end calorie-wise..besides Whopper is like 1000 calories!! 
15. Have you ever gone skinny-dipping? (grin) yes, and only one person has ever heard the story and lived! RWG. 
16. Would you ever parachute out of a plane? Is the plane crashing? Cause, if it’s not crashing, that would be a NOOO. 
17. What’s the most daring thing you’ve done? Sex on the golf course…(though stealing corn and getting close to being buckshot was not all that smart..heh heh heh..the roller skating off the barn roof was a baaadd idea too…hmmm…wow, I have done a LOT of STUPID things!..must be all that country air! 
18. When you are at the grocery store, do you ask for paper or plastic? Plastic…but I really want to buy those canvas bags and use them one day. 
19. True or False: You would rather eat steak than pizza. PIZZA!!! I am such a cheap date! Must have mushrooms and suggesting anchovies will get you a very rude look! 
20. Did you have a baby blanket? No, but I have 2 adult ones..(blue stars flannel and snowflakes throw) 
21. Have you ever tried to cut your own hair? (covers face with hands) I plead the 5th on the grounds that it may incriminate me. 
22. How did that turn out?  See anwer for last question. 
23. Have you ever sleepwalked? No, I am pretty easily awakened so any walking would have awoken me. 
24. Have you ever had a birthday party at McDonalds? No, I was deprived of Mcdonaldsby a women who insisted on making me homemade, family rich parties with much love and affection..damn them! 
25. Can you flip your eye-lids up? Yes, have done many times to gross out loved ones muchly..(grin) 
26. Are you double jointed? What I do in my bedroom is none of your beeswax! 
27. If you could be any age, what age would you be? 34. 
28. Have you ever gotten gum stuck in your hair? Yes, peanut butter is the great equalizer! 
29. Do you ride roller coasters? YES!!! I love them all! 
30. What’s your favorite carnival ride? Spider…is that considered a carnival ride? I also like the tilt-a-whirl. 
31. What is your dream car? No laughing…I want a BMW..(I said no laughing!!) Only friends who know my full name will get this joke..but feel free to guess. 
32. What is your favorite cartoon of all time? Looney tunes…Marvin the Martin.. 
33. Have you ever eaten a dog biscuit? eww..no way. 
34. If so, would you eat another one? Duh..no. 
35. If you were in a car sinking in a lake, what would you do first? Yell: “help I am in a car sinking in a lake..duh!” Possibly a cell phone would be involved. 
36. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance? No. 
37. Can you pick something up with your toes? I do that all the time..that’s where my daughter gets her monkey toes..we are all freaks. 
38. How many remote controls do you have in your house? 4 or 5….DVR, DVD, TV, VHS, Portable DVD. 
39. Have you ever fallen asleep in school? No, that’s was a good way to end up in the dumpster. 
40. How many times have you flown in an airplane in the last year? 3 recently too! 
41. How many foreign countries have you visited? Canada counts right? Then, 2. (pathetic really) 
42. If you were out of shape, would you compete in a triathlon if you were somehow guaranteed to win a big, gaudy medal?  Do I get a time period to prepare..if so screw the medal I would do it just to see if I could! 
43. Would you rather be rich and unhappy, or poor and happy? Poor and happy..who freaking needs money when you have love?
44. If you fell into quicksand, would you try to swim or try to float? I’d try to reach for a tree limb doofus..swimming and floating don’t work for long. 
45. Do you ask for directions when you are lost? I’d buy a map and then ask for directions. 
46. Have you ever held a Mexican jumping bean? No..have you ever heard a rubber band? 
47. Are you more like Cinderella or Alice in Wonderland? Alice, most certainly. 
48. Would you rather have an ant farm with no ants or a box of crayons with broken points? Ant farm with crayon points. 
49. Do you prefer light or dark bread? I like cinnamon bread with that light and dark swirly thingy running through it. 
50. Do you prefer scrambled or fried eggs? Fried..proper breakfast includes dipping your toast in gooey yolkage! I like scrambled when I watching my intake..I like Omelets best..preferably made by me! 
51. Have you ever been in a car that ran out of gas?  Yes..shay might recall the pushing of her car on several occasions..with your truly pushing and herself steering… 
52. Do you talk in your sleep? (blush) Whatever she told you it’s not true..even if it was my mouth that said it. 
53. Would you rather shovel snow or mow the lawn? Mow the lawn..have you ever shoveled snow? Hurts like a (%$#@&^). 
54. Have you ever played in the rain? Yes, whenever I get the chance! 
55. Did you make mud pies? Yes, very good memory that! 
56. Have you ever broken a bone? Not yet! 
57. Would you climb a very high tree to save a kitten? Yes, I climbed trees all the time as a kid..reason my legs look so bad now…(grin) 
58. Can you tell the difference between a crocodile and an alligator? I live in Florida..what do you think? 
59. Do you drink pepsi or coke? Tropicana Fruit Squeeze..though jerks stopped selling it. and root beer if I am being naughty. 
60. What’s your favorite number? 22 
61. If you were a car, would you be an SUV or a sports car? Sports car..might as well be the best. 
62. Have you ever accidentally taken something from a hotel? No, I am very particular about that stuff. 
63. Have you ever slipped in the bathtub? Yeah, hurts like a….yeah. 
64. Do you use regular or deodorant soap? Softsoap..Pomegrante 
65. Have you ever locked yourself out of the house? Too many times to mention without doubling over in giggles. 
66. Would you rather make your living as a singing cowboy or as one of the Simpson’s voices? Simpson’s voices for sure. 
67. If you could invite any movie star to your home for dinner, who would it be? (mysterious grin) I am soo not answering that one..if you have read my blog you already know. Tom Cruise and Brad Pitt are NOT on my list AT ALL EVER!!! 
68. Do you need corrective lenses? Yes, I want contacts!!! colored ones would be even cooler! 
69. Would you hang out with / date someone your best friend didn’t like? Yes, have done in fact. That’sa bonus in my book..who wants to date someone your best friend might try to steal? 
70. Would you hang out with someone your best friend liked, but you didn’t like? yeah..I don’t have to kiss him now do I? 
71. Have you ever returned a gift? No, though I have hidden a few! 
72. Would you give someone else a gift that had been given to you?  No, Why torture them that way! 
73. If you could attend an Olympic Event, what would it be?  Gymnastics! BOOYA! and Hockey…(YES YES YES) 
74. If you could participate in an Olympic Event, what would it be? Canasta Championship!! I would kick major ASS!!! 
75. How many pairs of shoes do you own? 2..and that includes my slippers. 
76. If your grandmother gave you a gift that you already have, would you tell her? No, I would wait until it wore out, broke or whoops got lost…I love my grandma! She gives me cookies! 
77. Do you sing in the car? I sing everywhere..car is just another place I sing. 
78. What is your favorite breed of dog? Greyhound..I want a retired greyhound very, very, very muchly!! 
79. Would you donate money to feed starving animals in the winter? Yes, and people..children, animals in general..I’d like to make up care packages with all the essentials a person might need..and some McDonald’s gift cards..pass them puppies out!! 
80. What is your favorite fruit? Oranges..I love em, banana’s next, then pineapple, apples, plums..pears..strawberries, blueberries, boysenberries, raspberries..I am a fruity gal. 
81. What is your least favorite fruit? grapes..I hate the squish feeling. 
82. What kind of fruit have you never had? dunno…something exotic maybe. 
83. If you won a $5,000 shopping spree to any store, which store would you pick? Bookstore, music store or DVD  store. 
84. What brand sports apparel do you wear the most? ADIDAS. 
85. Are/were you a good student? I am an exceptional student..I never stop learning..why would I? 
86. Among your friends, who could you arm wrestle and beat? I can beat them all!! That’s right I said it!! Prove me wrong!! 
87. If you had to choose, what branch of the military would you be in? Navy. I like the water. 
88. What do you think is your best feature? ??? my hands perhaps. 
89. If you were to win a Grammy, what kind of music would it be for? The Blues!!! 
90. If you were to win an Oscar, what kind of movie would it be for? Comedy!! 
91. What is your favorite season? Fall! 
92. How many members do you have in your immediate family? hmmm…3 of us..in my family, if you want my siblings there are 2 girls, 1 half brother..add steps? I have 3 brothers, 4 sisters…widen that scope to include divorced steps siblings? 7 brothers, 6 sisters…(yeah, it’s complicated) 
93. Which of the five senses is most important to you? I can do without all of them except perhaps touch. 
94. Would you be a more successful painter or singer? Painter, though I am no Picasso. 
95. How many years will/did you end up going to college? I will have ended up going to college about 6-7 years when I am done. 
96. Have you ever had surgery? Yes..more than once. Tonsils out, adenoids removed, c-section, gallbladder removed. 
97. Would you rather be a professional figure skater or professional football player? Figure Skater. Professional football players tend to lose teeth and other important things. 
98. What do you like to collect? Salt and Pepper Shakers, Art, Art glass, Turtles, Giraffes. 
99. How many collectibles do you have? Depends on the collection. 
100. What one question would you add to this survey? Are you left or right handed..I am left handed. 

 

 

How to annoy your fellow passengers!

I found this in google search..they are referring to a plane..but I think most of them would work just as well on..say a bus? (grin) What? I didn’t say I was going to ACTUALLY do any of them…(sheesh) These are the ones I personally like..click on the link below to see the other ones mentioned.. Note: I changed and added to some of these for my own personal amusement!

1. Ask the person next to you, “Are you in the Witness Protection program too?”
2. Bring a duffel bag packed with pipe cleaners, styrofoam balls, construction paper, etc. Organize a “Kraft Korner”. Make a craft likeness of the person sitting next to you.
3. Bring a microphone and act like Frank Sinatra
4. Decorate. Bring a scatter rug and tiny draperies. Hang a “Home Sweet Home” plaque on the back of the seat in front of you. Invite your fellow passengers in for tea.
5. Disco dance in the aisle
6. Hum the Monty Python theme song (among other favorites!)
7. Lead a bible study session in the back
8. Show off your Wonder Woman underwear.
9. Sing along with the songs on your mp3 player.
10. Snort when you laugh
11. Start a kissing booth!
12. Start singing the Shari Lewis theme, “This is the song that never ends, it just goes on and on my friends, some people started singing it not knowing what it was, and they’ll continue singing it forever just because, this is the song that never ends….
13. Switch accents and see if anyone notices.
14. Wear a hairpiece and switch it often, seeing if anyone notices
15. Try to lead everyone in singing “Oh I wish I was an Oscar Myer Weiner”
16. Respond to all requests with “As you wish” and a wink.
17. Introduce yourself as Enyigo Mentoya until someone gets the reference..
18. Get the person next to you to tell you the name of Simba’s father..each time they say “Mufasa” shiver, pause and then say..”do it again”
19. Look out the bus window and say..wow they all look like ants from up here.
20. Bring flower leis onboard..say Aloha to each passanger as they board the bus.
21. Insist that everyone call you “Sassy pants” for the duration of the trip.
22. Fish out the bus window with a string and a paperclip fishing rod, insist you caught a fish this big.
23. Ask the person next to you if they know if they will be showing a movie on this flight.
24. Wear a t-shirt with the words I am with stupid on it..have the arrow pointing up!
25. Ask what time it is, then ask what time they think it is in another country..change the country each time you ask.

 

 

Source:

Get annoyed

 

Bekki

Bountiful amounts of laughter

everyone is a friend

Kindness is what I offer

Kisses are what I send

Interested in everything I see

this is it..

this is me.

 

Moving to Wisconsin countdown!

12 More days until moving day!

 

 

The Rock and the waves..

Have you ever noticed that when things are darkest we are more likely to think we are all alone, even when we are surrounded by friends and loved ones we tend to think we shoulder all our sorrow and sadness by ourselves? It’s something I know a little about, hiding my own need for support. People who are the rock for others, forget to let them return the favor. We don’t do it to be stubborn or martyrs, we do it because we have gotten so use to ignoring our own needs as we work to keep others together we forget to let others give us the same kind of loving treatment. We simply forget, or worry that they will become more scared by our not having answers as we usually do. We worry that having their rock crumble will scare them and not be worth the resulting loss or concern reflected in their eyes.

What if we are wrong? What if the people we love would not only be overjoyed to be able to give back to us all the love we have given in increments over the years, but welcome the chance and maybe even be slightly relieved to know that the person who never seems to need anyone is in fact human? What if by sharing your own struggles and doubts, you allow the people in your life to learn the tool of support? What if by being honest about your fear you forge a bond you never knew needed strengthened?

 We rocks like being needed, we love responsibility don’t we? We love to be able to give answers to people, to be the savior of those we love so completely. To provide for others is a bit of a boost in ego, but sometimes, (I know because I am one) it is not about helping, it’s about hiding. Looking all put together is a good way to hide that deep down we are in fact, quite a mess of fear and worry. The rock  we present is a way to deny our inner turmoil and stubborn will, isn’t it? We figure if we control everything with our will we will be able to change the outcomes, and sometimes we do, but lets be honest love, sometimes we can’t and that is what scares the hell out of us!

In the end we have choices to make, do we let the people we love know that we cannot always be the rock?  That sometimes even rocks need something to anchor to, a foundation that is strong and firm to rest on while we do what we love to do, namely take care of them?  Do we suffer on scared and alone even while the ones we love gaze at us for some sign of our needing them? It’s all well and good to be strong, but it’s not strength to deny ourselves what we need, namely comfort, that’s not strength then is it? When we deny ourselves comfort it’s about that fear of letting go I was talking about. Allowing ourselves to admit we are weak is sometimes the strongest thing we can do. It is hard to admit we need people to circle around us and give us that loving thing we need desperately, but if we are that brave, if we are that willing to give in to our fear, we will find something we never could have found otherwise, calm.

When you allow love to enfold you, you find that what you fear, though still present, loses it’s grip just enough for you to continue on. The problems do not go away, but you can see the light again and the joy that fills you will carry you, validate you, make you strong enough to face the waves that rush in! We need to be the rock for the ones we love, but sometimes, sometimes, sometimes we need to be human enough to admit we don’t feel like a rock so much as a pebble being pushed from all sides.

I know, I know, I am preaching again. I do that from time to time, I am not trying to lecture really, I just realize things as I go about my day and the lesson so illuminates my mind I have to share it. I hope this is something you come to rely on with me, cause I do not plan to stop chatting about the things I am thinking. Some small part of me hopes I am helping someone, another part is admitting my truths, even ones I am embarrassed to admit to them. The thing is I am finding that when I admit my truths there is inevitably someone somewhere with the same truth trying to come out and wake them. I am stubborn and like to stay in control, my life is full of waves right now..perhaps it’s time for this rock to let herself be enfolded in love. I need a few hugs so I am off to get me some mother’s day huggage, I am not too proud to beg for what I need suddenly, and I think I know just who to ask!

 

Countdown to Wisconsin..

Today is May tenth..my moving date is May 23rd! (bumped up 2 days due to schedule conflict)

13 days until I move! I will be  traveling by bus and it will take 2 days travel to get there. Oy Vey..I will probably know exactly how Zen felt when she went from Australia to the US. Is there such a thing as Bus lag?

 

 

Interlinking thoughts..

I have a terrible habit…a habit that annoys my friends to no end, in fact I can see it in their eyes sometimes, this need to strangle me. The thing that I do that makes them all mad as hatters? I interlink my thoughts in a rapid transit way, in English that means I tend to connect ideas in my head that make complete sense to me, but leaves my friends scratching their heads wondering how the heck I got there. I will show an example and hope you will not run screaming from the room:

My good friend Mayank and I were speaking yesterday, this is not a direct quoting of commentary but you will get the idea:

M: read about the IRS thing are you ok?

Bekki: I wasn’t earlier but now I am calm (lol I had to retype that as I typed clam)

M:

Bekki: I am clam..heh I guess that makes you the Walrus

M: ?

Bekki: Alice in Wonderland.

M

Bekki: There is a  story in Alice in Wonderland where the Walrus interacts with some clams.

Me: ?

Bekki: Sorry. the word clam reminded me of the Walrus song..Goo goo gachoo

M: I think I would have to hear that.

Bekki: It’s the Beatles

M: I have the Beatles Collection..I have not heard that one.

Bekki: “I am the Walrus” provides link to Jim Carrey.

M: Thanks

so, only I could go from a comment on how I am to Jim Carrey singing “I am the Walrus”

(rolls eyes)

My friends must really think I am nuts!

ps. my interconnected thought from this conversation about interconnected thoughts?

Jim Carrey is a Capricorn, if anyone shows the secretly quirky side of Capricorns well it is him!! 

 His Moon is in Gemini, mine is Gemini Rising..this explains quite a lot I think about why I love Jim Carrey..(heh)

 

Lego’s at Disney..

At Downtown Disney Marketplace they have some really cool things to see. One of my ultimate favorites is the Lego Sculptures! I was telling a friend about them and while looking for some pics learned that have updated them with new ones! Check it out here.. 

 

Jim Carrey is the Walrus!

I love, love, love Jim Carrey’s version of I am the Walrus.. there is just something about his inherent creativity that makes this song even better..some may disagree..but this isn’t their blog..is it? (grin)

 

 

Bryan Berg is Stacked!!

If you have not seen the work of Bryan Berg you are in for a really cool treat!

Click here…and here..and if you want a book on how to do what Bryan does go here.

Seriously cool! I am adding this book to my Christmas list for sure..as well as several million packs of cards.

thanks Mayank for the link and heads up on this really neat site!

 

Computer!

I got my computer and though I feel guilty I know I need it more than the IRS needs it.  So, here are some photos..

 

 

IRS..

I have formulated a plan to deal with the tax issue and I think it will be ok in the end. I plan to contact the IRS and set up a payment plan with the added plan of informing them of my impending separation, I will ask if they have a way for me to only take on 50% of the debt while Mark is responsible for his 50% separately. I will then sell my washer and dryer which I never get to use due to lack of hook-ups. That should help me get a small payment together. I think once I get a job I will breathe easier on this issue. I am actually rather calmer about this than I thought I would be. I have considered the fact that there are sure to be bills I will be responsible for, not to mention that I may have to pay 1/2 Isabelle’s child care costs, I am sure there are joint bills I will be responsible for in the long run. The sooner I get moved and find a job the better off I will be.

I think I would be more scared if I didn’t know what I am capable of, I know I can save up money and pay off the bills I owe. I am resourceful and quite lucky to be going to live with my sister. It really isn’t worth getting all upset if I have nothing to give the bill collectors until I get a job. I will just set my chin and get a job and then work my arse off until they get paid off. I figure I can do just about anything I set my mind to. In the end I can choose to sit about and whine or I can get my butt in gear, find a job, and then put in overtime like a woman possessed. Any money I make will go to the bank and bills. I have never been afraid of hard work and I simply will not allow myself to fail.

 I also have much to be thankful for in the area of what I owe. I have no credit cards so there is no huge debt hanging over my head there. I have no property to pay on and the car is Mark’s responsibility. When I stop and think about it I am not all that mired in debt overall. I have some old bills that need attention but the only really huge bill I have is this $4,000 IRS thing and I get to make monthly payments for that! I payed off my student loans from 1995 years ago and with the exception of an old Bally’s bill I am all in all pretty lucky.

Yeah, I think I can handle this just fine. I am not a quitter and I am sure to find a way to make at least some money in the future..even if I have to babysit for a living in Shay’s livingroom! :) 

I will not forget that I am blessed and that God, who watches over me, will provide what I need to get by, I need only ask his help right? So I leave it in his very capable hands and plan on some serious scrimping and saving. I am looking forward and planning to save my money and buy only what I need.  

 

 

Oh No…

We just received from the IRS some rather frightening information. It would seem that we have a cancellation of debt that Mark never added to the 2006 income tax return, what does this mean? It means we have to add on 40,000 to the amount of our taxes, this means we owe the government $8,000.00. I want to cry because I always knew Mark was a really bad when it comes to bills, I knew this and I recall the bill coming in the mail, when I questioned him about it he refused to listen to me, this happens quite often, so I am not really surprised that it is now an issue. It took me a very long time to pay off my student loan because he just didn’t choose to make payments on them. The part that is scaring me beyond all reason is that I now have new student loans out and if he doesn’t make the arrangements with them to make some kind of payments I may lose my government funding. The even more frightening thing is that the bill for the cancellation of debt is in my name, my credit has always been better than Mark’s, or it was until we got married. (sigh) This means I am firstly accountable for all the debt and ta da, we are getting divorced!

I am not going to allow myself to get angry about this, it’s a wasted emotion for one, and it really is my fault as well as his. I recall the letter, I just let Mark handle it and I really should have known better. I accept that this is my problem to deal with, not sure how I will deal with it but I know I will do what needs done. I may end up eating crackers and cheese for the next 30 years but I will pay off this debt. I am now wondering if I should still get my computer. The $600 is a drop in the bucket and  desperately need the computer if I am going to succeed in my schooling, I am confused and worried but I know I will find a way to work it all out. At this point I am feeling a little numb and sad, but I know I will come up with a payment schedule with the tax people and work it out that way, I hope. At this point I am deciding that my need for the computer is more integral than ever to my future and I think  I will get it, but I am very conscious now of my need to get a job as soon as possible. On the other hand the money for the computer could start me on the right foot with the IRS and showing them I am willing to work with them, damn..I don’t know what to do.

My biggest fear is if they decide to cancel my current student loans as a result of this debt on the books. I would not have the funds to pay them in the amount they would want…I don’t know what to do…To say I am scared would be mild.

Bekki 

 

Hmm..New blog?

I am thinking of creating a photo blog for my time in Wisconsin…I want to get a hobby for the time I am there that gets me out and about and can be done in minutes a day. Shay says it’s a farming community so I am certain I will get quite a few good photos..I will have to think on it. I may even do a daily post of Shay’s fantastic food..she cooks like a dream..(drool) I may even want to do the blog with others so I can get a variety of photos..we did this on livejournal and it was pretty successful, in fact we even had weekly themes…anyone else interested?